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The end of my heart

on August 16, 2008 - 10:12pm

Evening to all,

I shouldn't even be home right now as I was suppose to be at work. But tonight's events has me so torn up that work was just not possible for me tonight. I really believed my life was turning around and that good things were happening to me. But again, life has other plans and threw me a curve I didn't expect .I always knew how tough long distance relationships were.......I now realize why they seldom work out. It really is about trust, and once that is gone, it is tough to restore. It can be done, but it is really difficult. Tonight I had my trust ripped from me. The man I thought loved me, thought respected me, thought was honest with me, lied straight out to me. How can a person maintain a relationship with someone 3ooo miles away who was lied to? How can I ever trust again? He made me feel so special so many times, but now I know it was all a lie. Because if I was so special, he wouldn't have lied to me in the first place. I lost my best friend in the whole world and I feel my heart has died. He finally pushed me away that I am not sure I can ever gain myself back from this. Why do people have to be so dishonest? The funny part is, I still love him and care deeply for him. I probably always will. I do wish all the best for him and hope one day he does find the beautiful woman he so cherishes. AS hurt as I am, I can't be mad at him... I should be screaming, but I am not. Just in tears. Needless to say, it has put an end to us. The sound of that just breaks my heart in half, but what other choice do I have? I wish I could understand why people have to lie and not be completely open. I opened my heart more than I have ever done before and i still got hurt. Maybe that's why people don't. Being hurt is not fun and sucks all to hell. But who can live happily if they don't give them selves completely? I just wish I knew why he couldn't..... I lost the one person who I thought was my best friend........where do I go from here? My life has just been turned upside down yet again. I just never expected him to do this to me......Just yet another man that hurt me.......why??????

Anyway, will still continue my endless blogs as I need them more than ever now... I was trying so hard to keep things so positive as being negative about anything seems like a waste of spirit. But my heart is just so broken in half.......

Take care my friends......

You are all loved.......

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Through your eyes

on August 16, 2008 - 11:02am

Good morning to you all......my thought and challenge for today is to see the way somebody else sees things. Take a moment and step away from your own view and see another's point of view. It is amazing what we can learn from our selves and each other when you step out of the one way thinking.......OPEN HEARTS, OPEN MINDS.........BEAUTIFUL WAY TO LIVE!

THROUGH YOUR EYES...... BY MARTINA MCBRIDE

Look at that cloud,
as high as a tree,
at least that's how it looks to me.

How about you?
What do you see?
What if we see things differently?

Show me,
How the world looks through your eyes.
Tell me about the sunrise.
Let me see the stars shine.
Show me,
how the world looks through your eyes.
And I can show you how it looks through mine.

If I had wings
and I could fly
I would tell you all about the sky.

How about you?
If dreams could come true,
what do you imagine you could do?

Show me,
how the world looks through your eyes.
Tell me about the sunrise.
Let me see the stars shine.
Show me,
how the world looks through your eyes.
And I can show you how it looks through mine.

And I could show you secret traits
where no ones ever gone.
I bet you've got secrets too
so don't be shy.

Come on
Come on
Come on
Come on, and

Show me,
How the world looks through your eyes.
Tell me about the sunrise.
Let me see the stars shine.
Show me,
how the world looks through your eyes.
And I can show you how it looks through mine.

Let me show you how it looks through mine

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GROBAN

on August 15, 2008 - 11:40pm

******groban**************************************************

Is there really anything left to say?*******************************

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There is life

on August 15, 2008 - 10:12am

Good morning mother Earth, Good morning sweet friends..... Wishing you all love and peace on another fine day. Heard a lovely song from a movie last night and just felt so inspired to post it. It is always amazing where you can pick up inspiration from.....it can come in the most oddest of places. This song came from the movie Bambi 2. I watched it with my kids last night, and these lyrics really stood out to me.The words really have a special meaning for me.......

THERE IS LIFE

Under the snow
Beneath the frozen streams
There is life

You'll have to know
When nature sleeps she dreams
There is life

And the colder the winter
The warmer the spring
The deeper the sorrow
The more our hearts sing

Even when you can't see it
Inside everything
There is Life...

Oh....

After the Rain
The sun will reappear
There is life

After the pain
The joy will still be here
There is life

For it's out of the darkness
That we learn to see
And out of the silence
That songs come to be

And all that we dream of
Awaits patiently
There is life

There is life
Ohohoohooo

Take care to all....

~You are Loved~

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Serenity

on August 14, 2008 - 6:45pm

Sweet Summer Evening to all.........Have you done anything today to make your heart smile and be so grateful for life? Have you inspired yourself today to learn even more about your own personal fire inside yourself? If not, then take the time to find that one thing that makes your heart so over whelmed with joy and excitement. Take the time to express your own personal creativity.Embrace your own spirit. That may sound corny, but in truth, each day we are here is a blessing, so why waste any day not finding the true passion inside of our selves.

For me, just putting simple words down in my blogs is so enriching and uplifting. I do not even care if any one reads it or not. Something quite therapeutic about letting the thoughts go from my own mind.It makes my thoughts and feelings seem so clear to me. In a world of confusion, it is a gift to have such a clear state of mind.

I came across this lovely picture tonight from another painter I never heard of, but the colors and the serene quality to it really calls to my heart.Its funny, deep inside me I feel as if I belong in the country, but not like yee haw kind of girl, that throws on a cowboy hat and listens to country non stop, but just desiring to be some place closer to the true works of GOD, kind of like in this painting that i saw tonight. (You'd have to see my other blogs to see the picture) But even though I feel as if I belong more out in the country, my desires for art and music stays quite strong in me. Now if there was a place that allows for the two worlds to combine, then I shall call it heaven.

But take the time tonight to think, dream, or just feel all the beautiful life that is around you.

~~~~~~my question for today~~~~~~~~

Please feel free to respond with your own answers..........

What three things captures your heart the most?

For me.......

1. When a friend says hello

2. The sounds of music that allows me to feel

3. Colors of the Earth

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