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Raining again!!

on November 18, 2009 - 5:46am

This weather is like a roller coaster. Ugh!! It was sooo pretty yesterday. But that's autumn in the South for you!!

I was hoping to get a call from the head of the flower guild about working on another team this Saturday but haven't yet. I'm hoping that what I expressed to another member of the guild hasn't made him angry. But I'm sorry. Frank intimidated and worried me excessively and I expressed that as I was working on the Chapel arrangements. If it got back to him and he doesn't want me on the guild because I said something, then that's okay. I'm a human being and prone to shooting off at the mouth on occasion. We'll see.

Its been a decent week so far!

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Monday

on November 16, 2009 - 5:02am

So it begins a new week of work. And I sit and stare at the envelope addressed to one of my bosses from a Personal Assistant Agency and I worry. Am I going to be replaced by this service?? Will I be jobless for Thanksgiving?? I'm trying to stay in the moment but its hard. I don't want to loose this job. Its not the best in the world no but in this economy its something I have that alot don't.

Maybe I'm worried because I didn't sleep well last night. I don't know. I brought an Al Anon book with me and I will be opening it here in a minute to read readings on fear and control so I'll be more relaxed and centered for the day. I'll keep writing here because this helps too.

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Who knew!!

on November 14, 2009 - 11:40am

Who knew that I could actually make a nice looking flower arrangement! Met with another flower guild team today and was allowed to work on the Chapel Arrangements. It was so much easier than the High Altar Flowers. The containers are smaller and sit on a low table and not on a high ledge. I had fun!!

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A Little Dinner... a Little Dancin....

on November 13, 2009 - 6:50pm

Had a really good time at the Good Shepherd Episcopal Church Dinner Dance tonight. I'm glad I went. It helped put me in a better place. Right before the day's end at work the mail lady came and I saw an envelope addressed to Mr. Chaplin from a Personal Assistant Service. My immediate reaction was to go down the "Okay so this is what's going to happen next week Mr. Chaplin is going to fire me and replace me with a personal assistant" road. So needless to say I left the office in a pretty grodie mood. But I read my Al Anon Books and my mother reminded me that as of today, I still have a job and enough money to get what I need.

It was good to sit with people and get acquainted and have delicious turkey and roast beef with potatoes and a salad and then Cherry Cheesecake for Dessert. I danced with the Organist who is a very good dancer. I need a strong lead and he did well. And you know, my attitude right now is so much better. Regardless of the mail today, I do have everything I need.

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Feeling a little blue

on November 12, 2009 - 8:50am

So my boss and his wife found out today that they are going to have a girl. Don't know the due date. I'm sad because my Sister in Law lost a baby and, well, I can't have children. I should be happy for them. I really should. But I can't help feeling a little down and left out.

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