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Wonderful People

on August 7, 2007 - 3:27am

Thanks to everyones comments. I really enjoy reading them. You are all such beautiful people. Getting ready for my job interview hopefully the agency will have something open. it's 6:30am so I'll try and get a nap in before the 11am appointment. Blessed be to you all, JoDee

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Awake Awake LOL

on August 6, 2007 - 10:12am

1pm - finally got some sleep and am recovering from the hectic vacation. Now comes the hard part since I haven't gotten any Social security disability I have look for a job Anyone in Baltimore looking for a babysitter???

I'm trained as a Social Worker but I let my license lapse when I got sick a few years back or sicker actually.

Anyway I've been reading the message boards and it's amazing the stuff people do. There's a thread about etiquette - you would think that Josh fans would be courteous (have I written about this already - if I have sorry) - There's the point in the current tour before he sings Sweeny Todd where he signs autographs and gives out hugs. People crowd up to the stage and the security watches over carefully. I've read several post where people are pushing others out of the way and not sitting back down and blocking the view of others. At WB my daughter was actually told by someone, :I'm going to shove you out of the way now: I've read countless other similar incidents at some shows I've been told Josh has actually had to fend off people throwing things at him. At Hershey some girls tried to give him chocolate (generic hershey chocolate you could buy anywhere) and the security was like really we have enough chocolate and they were rude and insistent. These people ruin it for the rest of us. At Hershey since I had a BSP (back stage pass) I stayed in my seat and let others go up. Ok done pet peeving.

Blessed Be,
JoDee

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Can't Sleep

on August 5, 2007 - 11:54pm

it's 3am and I can't sleep took my sleeping pills but they haven't kicked in yet. Been on the boards and am getting better at posting but this is still my favorite way of communicating. I love that people can read it (maybe not as many as the boards) but it's a more intimate setting. And people do sent comments but that is not the main reason I write here. I like not having a subject to stick to and I can be moe peronal. well more writing tomorrow.

blessings,
JoDee

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Feeling Much Better

on August 5, 2007 - 9:36pm

After my last blog I felt such a relief. On my way to PTJS recovery (Post traumatic Josh Syndrome) - About meeting him wish we had more time together and wish I wasn't as tongue tied but he was good natured about it.

blessed be,
JoDee

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Post Traumatic Josh Syndrome

on August 5, 2007 - 8:22pm

As Rachel wrote in her blog - back to reality - true so true. As I was writing in my personal diary I cried as I knew it would be a long time before I see Josh again. Happy though that I have a daughter who gave me such a wonderful vacation. Sometimes I feel like my illnesses are such a burden to her and when I talk about it to other people it makes it harder for her. I don't want to be a burden never ever.

After my lover committed suicide 12 years ago I thought the pain would never go away (it hasn't, but I understand she didn't want to burden us with her illnesses) I'm listening to Vincent so a mushy song and tears.

I was a stay at home mom - and sometimes my daughter says she doesn't remember her childhood well - I did it because she was so so precious to me. As well as my son is (although he chooses to keep me out of his life for what reason I do not know) I miss him terribly but am happy he is alive and well. Boy this is really a mushy blog - but writing is my outlet I have over 25 journals just over the past 10 years (My MS takes away a lot of my memory so I write in a way because I have to, to remember the things that have happened. So if I have met you at a concert and don't remember you or your name I'm sorry in advance the lesions tend to get tangled in the neurons.

Hopefully this week good news will abound and my social security will come through. They put you through such a pain in the ass procedure just to get what is yours. I was a social worker for over 15 years and it was so worthwhile I loved working with the children as a foster care worker. But can't keep it up anymore.

On a happy note I have a wonderful girlfriend in my life now - After Beth I never thought I would love again but Erin is terrific. Hopefully I have not offended anyone with my sexual orientation. But we are who we are and this is me.

Michele I saw a picture on the boards of your daughter with Josh and I know in my heart that the gifts they wouldn't let you bring in will get to Josh. I will be on the lookout for when he starts to promote his Christmas Album his beautiful voice (even though I am a buddhist/pagan) Josh you are my world, my heart and the blood that runs through my veins. Bless you for who you are and to your mom who raised a proper son!!!

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