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blue day

on April 18, 2008 - 7:50am

I hate feeling down and today is a day a can't shake the blues.I would cry if I knew what was up but it's just a day when I am not myself.I hate these days because if you knew the source you could fix it.I will just loose myself in Josh's voice and I know he will lift me out of the funk I'm in!!! I am fortunate that these days are rare for me.

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RATS AGAIN!

on April 17, 2008 - 1:16pm

Again, I wish I was living in the states to be eligible to enter the contests through this site.I would love an opportunity to see Josh in London performing in Chess.Oh well I'll just have to find lots of money [yea right]to see him whenever I can.I have a Josh fund, that I slip money into when ever I can, so the next time he is near I can go.Unfortunately the fund hasn't grown to afford a trip over seas,although I know tickets and rooms are covered but transportation is not affordable at this time.Someday and it'll be soooo worth it.Funny thing about Josh seeing him live once just doesn't seem to be enough,you always want more--What an incredible man to hear and see!!!

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good morning

on April 17, 2008 - 7:21am

It is a wonderful day in my neck of the woods.Even though it is a little cool this morning,the sun is up and the birds are in fine voice and no wind.I have the day off as I have to appear in court this today to help a motor vehicle accident victim present his case.My old job still haunts me as I will never have this role in my new place of employment.I don't mind being part of the process that finds the truth though.I will take my I-pod so I can listen to Josh on my walk home from the court house.I live in a small city [approx 60,000] and you can walk almost every where you go and I love it as that is the most purest form of exercise for your body.If people walked more I would have fewer people to see in my profession.I hope you have the same weather I have today so you can get out and stroll in it and enjoy.

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Rainy day

on April 15, 2008 - 1:14pm

We have a rainy spring day in southern Alberta and it is nice to have the dust settle and the plants green.I took my I-pod and my umbrella with me today on a walk and strolled in the rain listening to Josh---it felt like a perfect day.My stress levels dropped and I wasn't as sad as I have been for the past few days.
My mom came to visit me and she tripped on a sidewalk,fell and broke her nose and received a mild concussion.The doctor in the ER was so good to her but it makes me sad because she was hurt and embarrassed.I wish she didn't feel bad as it was just an accident but it has made her feel ashamed.I wish that she didn't have to feel that way.I just want her to get well and fell happy.I love my mom very much and, it's like when you love your child,when they hurt so do you.

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Dreams

on April 14, 2008 - 11:56am

I read on other sites of people dreaming of Josh.I never experience those because I very seldom dream or if I do I very seldom remember them.I do,however,have the fortunate ability to draw on the memory of Josh's voice and I can actually hear him inside my head like a CD.I have always had that ability and I love it when I am drifting into sleep as I can hear Josh sing me to sleep.I believe we all have the power to do this with concentration.My husband feels I can do it so clearly because I have listened to Josh daily for the past 7 years.When I say always Josh I mean always Josh!!All I do is add his new music to my collection and listen to it in a cycle.His music and voice are the only sound loaded on my I-pod as well and I can walk with him in my head. I adore Josh's voice, there is none other.

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