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On My Way

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on June 14, 2011 - 10:49pm

Researching out publishing companies to assist me with making a comics. I can vividly see the characters coming alive like a movie. I remember listening to Josh songs and seeing movies in my mind of many stories I could barely put in writing. It comes to no surprise that you tube videos have final Fantasy to depict the many stories as they grow out of "In Her Eyes."

Eyes have always been an enigma. I remember thinking why did my dad named my sister and I Iris and Apple. If my eyes can speak a thousand words...it would be an understatement. I can capture many emotions and expand on just about anything. Of course it comes to no surprise that I love to ponder over different ideas like a pandoras box. I'm particularly good at spotting beauty and the other side of the coin in one glance. I remember looking at my eyes in the mirror and realizing that there are others that could see me. They know me but I don't know them. I know them but they don't know me. They mean something to me but I can't tell them how much they mean to me. I'm greatful when they seem to notice me but I'm not afraid if they don't. I just know that the most important audience can see me always. The One being there...to witness what I'm going thru. I'm not at all afraid of what the rest may think of me and how the evil one might try to react. They have no power over me unless I let them. My love for the One is my power. This will never change. I may make mistakes but none can take it away from me. I know at times when I've been naughty many have tried to bully me away. Too bad really I thought...little do they know how hard my head is...but my heart stays soft. I forgive and forget easy not realizing that this is not the case with other people who liket to take grudges very deeply. Words can be harsh but eternal damnation even harsher. Still...I realize that this is not the way to go. These days I try to be more like JOSH! Nice and calming Josh...sensitive and vulnerable but directs every conversation with milliflous words of comfort, agreement and honest exhortation.

I must say my lips take over the my face more than I wish it to. It's the darn mole I was gifted to center all attention to these little lips that keeps moving as if food is ready to be devour with gusto. I can speak endlessly and alcohol is absolutely not a necessity. Like my mom I can speak with every men and women with utter intelligence of quietly speak with my mind. The latter more than the former. On the hind sight I should have been a politician but I despised their dishonesty and settled for healthcare that is far more dignifying to my souls demand!

My wisdom has grown, despite a few cobwebs of blunt honesty and sarcasm. I can still play a saint, a puppeteer and many more if only to express my point of view... Needless to say I may have said too much but that's just me...

I'm learning to use my other power of simply transforming pain into something beautiful like Josh... One whose heart beats truer than gold despite the many enuendo and playful imaginations...Josh you are so true to the core.

One of these days after all these seemingly endless charades and role playing... I will send forth the gift that would make many laugh and children will realize that the Octaves and Eights are the true language and hour of their lives. "My Jokes are Easy...And my Pen is Light!"

One of these days I will hold a little Sofie in my arms and show her the book that her mother has given to the world simply to make them laugh just a little harder despite any challenges. That the presence of the One has always been present in every letter, every stanza, every sentence that they spoke...All because of one man's voice and kind eyes that spoke love to trying soul such as mine.

Josh you are my heart and my soul...
I'll be holding you forever...
Stay with me forever...
(Yes it's a song but my thought are original and these apples are natural...my mole is also real and darn it Josh If you can read this...you should be laughing!)
When the sun shines forever...
You can stay under my umbrella..
Under my umbrella!

Of all people If I know I would fall for you J-O-S-H I should have known you are a Rock...Good thing I'm W-A-T-E-R so I can wrap around your every pore and make the rock glisten in the sun.

Mercy Josh...The picture below is killing me...Alejate is playing in my head and I don't even care if it's about letting go...I'm stuck on you like water on the Rocks...

Save the Last Dance for me...

Love,
Apple

P.S. Where is the Journal of Jane? (Oh wells...) Some things are better left unsaid. If you need a therapist...I'm a darn good one...

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