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Worth it

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on January 17, 2010 - 12:47pm

Dear Josh Journal,

Somehow I still think it’s worth it. All the sacrifice, all the pain, all of the persecution.

I am 26. I have little to no good memories of my life. I was born into a life somewhat like the prophets of the Old Testament. I have known that I was supposed to follow God and obey Him my whole life. It hasn’t been easy. When you decide to follow God and stand for truth darkness is never far behind. There are only two kinds of people in this world, those who decide to follow God and those who don’t. If someone chooses not to they merely serve a different god, a god of darkness and sin. I have seen firsthand where that leads, and it’s not pretty.

Let’s talk about God for a minute. The God I serve is loving, kind and requires obedience. Many people confuse God with the church or people who say they follow God. God is perfect. People aren’t. The church isn’t. I have been persecuted and abused by the church; however I have never confused that with God. That is not a reasonable excuse to disobey God. It’s also isn’t going to wash to say that people are hypocrites. So what? What about you? Just because people decide to lie, cheat, and steal doesn’t give anyone else the right to.

I have decided to obey God completely. I have suffered every day of my life. I have been abused, persecuted, friendless, ostracized, and tortured. It’s still worth it. The people whose lives really matter are the ones who sacrifice and are willing to suffer for the benefit of mankind. I have spent my whole life, since the moment I drew my first breathe, choosing to follow and obey God. The battle started immediately. Life comes down to a huge battle between darkness and light. You either choose light and fight or surrender to the darkness. I have chosen to fight darkness in whatever form that takes. Most of the time that just means living in the truth.

I have been through so much and I just can’t deny that God is real and He deserves to be obeyed, worshiped, and glorified through my life. I have no excuse. Neither does anyone else. The evidence of God’s existence surrounds us daily.

It’s extremely unpopular to have the beliefs I have. I don’t care about being popular. Most popular people are miserable because they allow their lives to be dictated by others, have no morals, and they compromise themselves so much that they become merely a shadow of a human being.

Most people aren’t happy. I wouldn’t say that I am happy either. However, I do know that my obedience to God is making the world a better place, and that to me is worth it.

There are many brilliant Christian men I could quote right now but I think I will choose my favorite, Jesus. “For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul? For the Son of Man is going to come in the glory of His Father with His angels and will then repay every man according to his deeds.”

If that’s not food for thought, then I don’t know what is.

With sincere love and truth,
Erika

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