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on January 1, 2012 - 5:04pm

Tonight, I am not going to title this entry until I am finished with it. I have such a tendency to babble and switch thoughts that my titles always have to change.

It is New Years Day. 2011 was a pretty good year in that Josh's concert was something so exciting to look forward to. July 2011 was here and gone in seconds.

Being human is difficult enough, but being a human adult is not all that it is cracked up to be. I am once again saying to myself, "Kate......... be careful what you wish for.", "You know that life is not always greener on the other side.", "Think of the sacrifices.", and then the big "What if's." I have some college education, but 90% of my higher education came from the Do or Die System at the School of Hard Knocks and Life Experience. It is there that I earned my PhD. I am the "I want" or "I always wanted" type of person. I remember when I was in high school and could not wait until I was old enough to make my own decisions. I could not wait until I had a job and could buy a car. I could not wait until I got married, had a house and children. All of that is enough for anyone. Or is it? THEN, I could not wait until my kids were old enough to graduate and have a life of their own, be happy.

Everything I really wanted and worked very hard to get or wished for in my life thus far I have gotten. Scary! I said these words about five years ago, "I cannot wait until I can retire and not have to put up with the government, political crap anymore." Now, because of the number of years I have worked and my age, I can look at retirement. I 'want to have my cake and eat it to'.

I have made so many life changing, stupid mistakes that have effected my family. Since it has taken over an hour to put this journal entry together, it is obvious I excel in changing my mind. Time to write down the pro's and con's, get my papers together, see a Financial Planner or my accountant and write my final list of what I want accomplished in 2012.

On another note, I can't wait until Josh releases his vlog.

Kate

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