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I'm feeling lonely. Random rambling

Camilla's picture
on September 28, 2006 - 6:15am

Have you ever had the feeling that even though you are surrounded by so many people you feel all alone? I do this all the time. It's like I'm there but I'm standing with one foot outside... Always feeling like I'm not really there. Weird and kind of sad. I don't belong. No one knows this though. What can I say, I'm pisces, I have secrets...

Anyway, So Awake is soo going to be the end of me. Everything I have heard so far is so amazingly amazing I'm not sure how I'll be able to handle this new cd... If 15 seconds of music on a flashsite (jg.com) can make me play the same clip over and over for a whole day, I wonder what the CD will do? Put me in the ground? I know for sure that I will cry my eyes out. Like the first 100 times I listen to it. At least.
Another thing is with all the new action going on here on fojg, everyone is expressing how happy and excited they are, I'm posting even less than I use to. Why is that? And I realize that if I don't write anything nobody will even know I exist. I get sad when I feel invinsible but I don't do anything about it. I don't have many friends here and I blame noone but myself. And how come I always write in my journal when I'm feeling like crap, haha? Ok. Enough.

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