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Getting through

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on March 10, 2007 - 9:35am

It is a lovely Saturday and just hanging out at the old home as usual. I lead such an exciting life don't I? I have a feeling there are going to be many more days like this. It was rough again last night as spouse and I got into it again after he dropped the kids off. I didn't want to, because the kids were there. There is no excuse for arguing in front of the kids. I can not tell him enough how wrong that is. Kids do not need to see this or be made to feel like they have to choose. They don't. It was painful again and I really didn't sleep too well after wards. But with that said, he did call this morning and apologize for being that way in from of the kids..At least he knows he was wrong. But then, I have heard this before, so, we shall see..........

So, where I go from here and what to do is a little unknown at the moment. I am scared that I won't be able to take care of the kids like I want to. I know I am not alone in this, but it doesn't make me less afraid. Just starting over in my life is just a little overwhelming to me at the moment. I know I will get through it eventually, but til then its going to be up and down for me.When it is all said and done with, I know I will become a stronger and better person.It is just the road getting there that is a rough one. But that is life. Some times we have to make those hard choices so we can get to the better things that make us happy and bring us peace. So bare with me and all the depressing blogs. It is just part of my journey.I am a survivor, I will get through it. I just miss being my old goofy self. She seemed to have been gone quite awhile now. Somebody bring her backkkkkkkkkk! I so need to get back to FOJG and make fun of Josh all the time.....LOL...just kidding!

Well, got to go finish some stuff around the house.......Hope you all keep your selves out of trouble or I will hunt you all down ..........LOL. Wouldn't want that now would we?.........I may just sing and scare all of ya to death....!MUHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!! Maybe I will just moon all of ya and then really give you nightmares.......................!!!!!!!!!!WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Ok, I am done now. Time to go find my hamster, and fix his wheel..................Have a great day all!

You are Loved!!

*18 days till my first Groban concert...the count down has begun*

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