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"Where is that simple day...?"

elsabeth99's picture
on June 13, 2007 - 10:41pm

Where has that old friend gone?
Lost in a February song...
Tell him it won't be long
'Til he opens his eyes..."

...I have come to the conclusion that I...am...old...

After spending my 26th birthday with my 20 year old sister being a bum around our new apartment, renting a couple of movies (I have never laughed sooo hard at some of the things in Jackass...Firehose rodeo?!), and crashing at 2am the next morning, I have realized that I am old and really have nothing to show for the 26 years I've been alive except a few emotional scars, a few physical scars, and a few good friends that haven't been like everyone else I know and left me in the dust of their own lives...

Can you tell I'm in quite a melancholic mood? I suppose apathetic would be a better word to describe it... Who knows. I keep hearing the words 'this too shall pass' in my head, but for some reason I just can't seem to believe them to be true.

So one of my best friends from high school is quickly nearing the end of the adoption process with her husband to adopt twins from Ethiopia. I can't honestly say that I'm a little bit jealous, not because I particularly want children right this second (if ever), but more people her life is so stable and comfortable...I want that...

Did I mention that I'm 26? Yeah...26, a freshman in college, and single. I guess I'll just be the family spinster when I'm 80...who knows. I mean, I would love to have someone in my life, but at the moment, I really just need to focus on me, ya know?

Ah, I'm babbling now, so I think I'll just head to bed and hope that my dreams float to some other realm where happier times exist.

Night.

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