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So I listened to Josh today...

Camilla's picture
on June 28, 2007 - 9:08am

So after more than a month of not being able to listen to Josh or have anything to do with him, finally, today, I listened to Awake without wanting to burst in to tears... It felt like coming home!

I have realized something as well during all this mess. Somewhere along the line, for me, it became more about Josh as a person, rather than my fascination for his music. It's not supposed to be that way, I think. Listening to his music didn't make me feel happy, but sad. Sad because I don't know him personally, or that I'm not his friend. Pathetic, I know, and even more so, it ruined the music. So perhaps this break was good in a way, for me. Perhaps it made me wake up.

I'm not going to hang out here on the boards as much as I did either, because it will probably bring me right back to where I was, obsessing over Josh. And I don't want to do that. Obsessing over his music - sure, but not him as a person. I can't do it.