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on October 25, 2007 - 8:02pm

Haven't heard from "Jack" today. I do hope he works up the nerve to call or text me. Perhaps he'll invite me to the next dance party, when ever that is. His mom really seemed to like me (ha, and she did drive to my house to return my coat). His mom made a comment I found interesting. I told her I absolutely love dancing, and she said, "Good! 'Jack' does to. His whole life revolves around dance." She could have mentioned him because he was the reason I was there. It seemed though that she was implying something more...

Work today was much better! My boss complimented me! He said that I couldn't be doing a better job, and he's incredibly happy with the job I'm doing. He said that other people get frustrated with me because they don't understand what I've had to deal with, but he knows, and he can't believe I've been able to keep up with everything this well :) Totally made my day. I told a coworker, and she said, "He knows he ticked you off and he'd better make up for it. The only time you get a compliment is when he's made you mad, no matter how much you deserve credit." Too true. Hopefully he did realize I don't appreciate being yelled at for crazy things all the time.

Then this guy at work took my picture. He took only two other pics of coworkers, and I know this guy "likes" me, so I think he took the other pics just so he wasn't too obviously just taking mine. I can see right through that scheme, though ;) Haha I asked to see the pictures, and he grabbed the camera, exclaimed, "no! don't touch it!" and ran off. I wonder why? Guys sure are interesting!

Tonight we had our first monk rehearsal. It actually went quite well. I was concerned at first, but we already seem to have a clue as to what we're doing. The lady in charge even said it was a good thing I was there :)

I'm still learning to trust God with my relationships. He's been working with me! All my life I've seriously considered not having children of my own, but God's changed my desires. I've always wanted a husband, but now I yearn for one more than ever.

Josh's Christmas album actually brought all this out. I can't listen to I'll Be Home For Christmas because it makes me want a husband and kids, which makes me sad.

I watched Josh singing "She's Out of My Life" in Manila, thanks to youtube. The line about being together for 2 years always grabs my attention. It took me 5 to figure out one guy wasn't the right one, and a lot of people now are getting married after dating only months. Then again I know lots of stories of married people who dated the people they married for a few years, all the while thinking that person was not the one. So I guess one really never knows. It's a good thing God's in control and not me!

I wish I was tired but when I'm wanting someone, I can't sleep...

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