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on October 26, 2007 - 12:04pm

I have a real problem with the song "Awake".

Actually, before I get stoned to death by my fellow Grobanites, I guess I should explain that I think that "Awake" is one of Josh's most touching and personal songs, and the lyrics are very powerful. The problem is not with the song itself...in fact, if the song wasn't so hauntingly beautiful, I wouldn't have a problem with it at all.

The problem I have with the song are the images and the fears that it brings to the surface for me. I heard Josh explain that Awake had to do with the end of something...like the end of a relationship. For me, however, I always think of someone leaving forever, as in someone dying. That person varies, I guess with my mood, but it's always someone close, and it's usually my child. When I hear the song, I not only think about the pain of losing one so dear to me, but I actually see the night before it happens...knowing it's coming, not being able to stop it, counting the seconds. And now I'm sitting here in my classroom, on my lunch break, crying like a baby.

Because of this, I have a hard time listening to one of his most beautiful songs. I'm trying to figure out how to fix this macabre imagination problem that I seem to have. The only thing I can think of so far is to write it...to fictionalize it, so that when I hear the song in future, I no longer imagine such pain...instead, I think of a fictional story.

But I'm not sure it will work.

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