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I want to forget

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on November 21, 2007 - 10:14pm

Can someone please fast forward through the holidays so I don't have to go through them? Having a really hard day today and it started from the moment I got up.It was a few things that have plagued my thoughts with worries and fears and I cannot shake this dreadful feeling I have. Even as the day went on things happened that I would like to forget. The hardest part about today was not having anyone to talk to about it with. I feel so alone right now and it sucks all to hell. I just wish one thing went right today... Why is it when I have days like this no one is around??? I don't know, maybe it is best I just stay away from everyone.... that way they won't have to deal with my stupid moods.....

Anyway, just put the kids to bed and I think I will go cry the rest of this evening alone as always....I know I shouldn't feel sorry for myself, as I know many people have problems worse than I do, but I do today...I suppose we all have days when we just throw ourselves the worlds biggest self pitty party. I am having one now.....I guess being happy was just too much to ask for. I don't know why I even bothered to want it... just going to be a let down in the end.... Maybe I was never meant to be happy........It just seems that way.....

Sorry for the totally depressing blog. Just hate life today. Off to bed so I can forget this whole stinking day... In case I am not on for a day or so, I wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving. Hope you have many reason to be thankful and appreciate all the wonderful things in your life. Enjoy what God has given you.Right now, I wish I could feel thankful about anything, but sadly I can't find the strength to even want to.....good night!

Take care to all......you are all Loved......

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