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Find Yourself

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on December 6, 2007 - 10:22pm

Well, its been a cold lazy day in the little town of Gustine and have not done a whole lot today. Spent most of the day under massive amounts of blankets trying to keep warm. It sucks not to be able to afford heat. I am sure some of you will laugh at me as California gets no where near cold as those places with snow. Sorry, I am a wimp. I get cold easy....But I did enjoy the weather today as the rain made its presence know for the entire day. There was something very soothing about being lazy as the world outside was getting soaked. It would have been a beautiful time to liten to my AWAKE cd again........ But no, I didn't reach for Groban today. It has been just a quiet afternoon.

But I sat laying around today with my little boy just playing as we were on boats. Was nothing too exciting, but it made him smile. I did enjoy just being a little goofy with a 5 year old . Although, I can tell he is a boy. He kept looking down my shirt wondering what mom had down there. I certainly hope he out grows that. But some how I doubt it. LOLOL... I wish I could have done more with him today, but I just have not been able to keep my mood upbeat long enough to enjoy the day. Still trying to find my way I suppose. I hate these up and down moments. One day I am OK, the next I am not. But I suppose it just takes time to adjust to changes.

But as the day went on and evening approached , I had this song in my head that I remembering hearing from a long time back. In fact the first time I heard it, it was in a movie theater. I remembered being moved even then. I don't know why, but been thinking of the words alot today. I went online to find the words, and sure enough, I did. Normally I am not too much into country, but I adore this song and the words. I can recall the first time I heard them and tears came down my face. I know if I heard them right now, I would probably end up in tears again. Just reading them brings out my emotions so deeply. Its called Find yourself....... man, I so need to get the CD now. It happens to be on the movie CARS soundtrack.....It is simply a beautiful song. It is so fitting for how I feel right now......

Find Yourself

When you find yourself in some far off place
and it causes you to rethink some things
You start to sense that slowly you're becoming someone else
And then you find yourself...

When you make new friends in a brand new town
and you start to think about settling down
The things that would have been lost on you
are now clear as a bell
And you find yourself,
yeah that's when you find yourself

Well you go through life
so sure of where you're heading
And you wind up lost
and its the best thing that could have happened
Cause sometimes when you lose your way, its really just as well
because you find yourself,
yeah that's when you find yourself.

When you meet the one, that you've been waiting for
and she's everything, that you want and more
You look at her and you finally start to live for someone else
And then you find yourself,
yeah that's when you find yourself

Well you go through life
so sure of where we're headed
And we wind up lost
and its the best thing that could have happened
Cause sometimes when you lose your way, its really just as well
Because you find yourself,
Yeah that's when you find yourself.

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