Skip directly to content

January 17, 2008

itzchel's picture
on January 17, 2008 - 6:23am

It's been a while since I've written. really hasn't been that much to say.

I'm dreading my appointment with the oncologist. Just routine check up but still scares me after all this time. I started to bring my ipod with me to the appointments and have been playing Josh to help me keep calm.

It's funny never really wanted kids until I couldn't have them anymore. I remember when my girlfriends and I would play house, I would always have a boy and his name was always Josh. I've loved that name for as long as I can remember. Maybe it is part of the reason Josh has an appeal to me.

My life is a series of songs some upbeat rock, pop, dirges, love songs, please don't let me die songs, thank God I didn't die songs, break up songs, wedding song and songs that fill your heart. Josh fits in the "fill up your heart" category. When he sings, nothing else seems to exist in the sense that I am so inspired by his voice and the lyrics in any language, that nothing can cause me pain or the pain I am in is relieved.

There's so much music in the world. Have to wonder why it took so long for me to find Josh just a couple of years ago.

Anywho, on a brigher note, we're planning our vacations for this year - Dominican Republic and Jersey Shore. Can't wait for either. I am so ready for vacation away on a beach.

Anyone have any suntan lotion? Rum Punch?

[]