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Sigh...

vijaykumar's picture
on June 4, 2008 - 1:25am

So, I haven't kept up my journal here and decided to start now so let's see how this goes. I must say that it's rather nice to type here while looking at Josh...sigh... "I am not a hero, I am not an angel, I am just a man!" Not just a man to me! So I don't understand all the hububaloo about his interviews. Why is there so much controversy? In my eyes he can do no wrong. Heck, he could be gay for all I care (ok, maybe it’ll break my heart, but it’s not like I have a chance with him now, lol) He’s yum-i-licious either way and it’s nice to see him being himself. Life is no fun when you have to worry about what others think let alone the whole world. That will cause people to crack and stop doing what they love because the love gets sucked out.

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Why am I still up? It’s almost 1am and I’m still up. I gave up taking naps with my kids thinking that would do it and it hasn’t. I go to sleep anywhere between 2 and 5, wake up at 7:30 with the kids. I guess it’s not a bad thing if I’m not exhausted, I’ll just have to take advantage of it and use this power for good, not evil! Maybe I should start on my Christmas crafts. I guess I’m just a little worried about when I do crash. August will mark my first year without my thyroid and it hasn’t been an entirely bad thing. I have more energy and I’ve lost 20 pounds but I feel a little apprehensive about my first check up. I never knew I had any medical problems up until my doc found the lump. I had the surgery, no problem, which triggered a bout of vertigo that landed me back into the hospital which let to a spinal tap, various blood tests, and an MRI, which found “non-specific” spots. What could be next? I’m not too worried about the spots, the neurologist isn’t, but what could be next? What else do I not know about? I know, I know, I can’t worry about these things. It’s a great way to waste energy, but I’m up already right? Maybe I can go to sleep now and have a great Josh filled dream. If not I'll be back with another entry.

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Did I mention that today is the last day of school? Three kids at home with me for the next 3 months for the first time EVER... YIKES!

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