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AWAKE

MJKC9397's picture
on June 27, 2008 - 10:28pm

It never fails to amaze me how many different things 'Awake' means to me! As I sat here listening to it for the first time on the WASH97 fm interview a few minutes ago (by the way--thanks Colette for suggesting thatjoshgrobanguy.com's updates for my evening insomnia cure and entertainment for tonight! LOL) all of my fears for this pregnancy went away...I stopped and realized, if for only a moment, what a gift I have been blessed with. With every pregnancy, I immediately fell in love with my babies as soon as I found out their existence within me...even though I lost the last one, I realized that the reason it hurts so much to lose a baby--no matter how early-on--is because of that bond that has been formed. I do have 3 beautiful daughters...and every day I thank God for those blessings. This new baby I'm carrying is no different. Because of fear, though, I realized when listening to the words of Awake again, I have ignorantly attempted to hold back my feelings. Feelings I can't ignore. I love this baby. I don't want to lose it, and I can't wait until, if it's God's will, I can hold her or him in my arms. I've been tiptoeing around my own way of bonding because of fear! For what? I won't elaborate, but I will say, hearing Awake in that moment was more reassurance that any nurse has given me in the past 2 weeks!!! It just goes to show that I need to slow down more often...and for-the-love-of-Pete listen to Josh!!! LOL

(((Hugs to all)))...and back to thatjoshgrobanguy.com's scheduled programming! LOL

EDIT: Wow! Nay has Josh's Nelson Mandela Birthday performances up! AMAZING...I HAVE NO OTHER WORDS!!!

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