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on June 27, 2008 - 10:28pm

It never fails to amaze me how many different things 'Awake' means to me! As I sat here listening to it for the first time on the WASH97 fm interview a few minutes ago (by the way--thanks Colette for suggesting's updates for my evening insomnia cure and entertainment for tonight! LOL) all of my fears for this pregnancy went away...I stopped and realized, if for only a moment, what a gift I have been blessed with. With every pregnancy, I immediately fell in love with my babies as soon as I found out their existence within me...even though I lost the last one, I realized that the reason it hurts so much to lose a baby--no matter how early-on--is because of that bond that has been formed. I do have 3 beautiful daughters...and every day I thank God for those blessings. This new baby I'm carrying is no different. Because of fear, though, I realized when listening to the words of Awake again, I have ignorantly attempted to hold back my feelings. Feelings I can't ignore. I love this baby. I don't want to lose it, and I can't wait until, if it's God's will, I can hold her or him in my arms. I've been tiptoeing around my own way of bonding because of fear! For what? I won't elaborate, but I will say, hearing Awake in that moment was more reassurance that any nurse has given me in the past 2 weeks!!! It just goes to show that I need to slow down more often...and for-the-love-of-Pete listen to Josh!!! LOL

(((Hugs to all)))...and back to's scheduled programming! LOL

EDIT: Wow! Nay has Josh's Nelson Mandela Birthday performances up! AMAZING...I HAVE NO OTHER WORDS!!!