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Clearing the Dust

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on September 7, 2008 - 3:02pm

Pretty dusty in here! It's been a long time since I've written. I enjoy writing here so much... I really need to do so more often.

Well, think I'll go with the "dust" theme today. Really wanting to put a metaphorical feather duster to all areas of my life. I've really let my fitness goals fall to the wayside. I'm very sad to say that I've regained most of the 30 pounds I lost last year. :( I think looking forward to seeing Josh in concert got me out of bed at 4:30 a.m. every morning. I had weight goals for each concert and by golly, I made those goals! I know I need to keep up with my fitness plans for myself, but for some reason, that's hard to do. I get so sad that the weight is back on, but here comes that feather duster.....starting tomorrow I'm dusting myself off and hitting the gym again. I know that I can do it. Plus, next time Josh comes around on his tour, I'll look extra fabulous! :D

I don't want to get too personal here, but boy does my marriage need a super duper dusting (along with some serious scrubbing). I'm in my early 40's and this is our 16th year of marriage...two young kids. I think it's a bit natural to look around and think, "Dang! Where in the heck did our marriage go?" What is strange tho' is that we don't talk to each other at all. When I do bring up serious topics, he gets very defensive and rude, or he says absolutely nothing at all. I'm always the one who has to take charge to fix things, and I'm pretty tired of doing that. I don't really care anymore, which is a sad place to be.

I know this is a natural occurrence in relationships....part of the "ebb and flow". It's tough though. I really miss having a partner to talk to. I've never felt this alone. :(

So, Josh's "Smile" is playing right now. I know things will get better. Gotta run and find my feather duster....or maybe that new Swiffer brush works better? ;)

Melany

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