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Guess it's called life

vijaykumar's picture
on September 17, 2008 - 11:47am

So I broke up with Joel yesterday. I felt horrible to do it, but it had to happen. I've never hurt anyone intentionally before and it's not something I'd like to experience again anytime in the forseeable future. I thought we might still be friends, at least casually on facebook but after we hung up he sent me an e-mail saying that it would be best if we had zero contact in the future. He's leaving Regal Cinemas now to find a better job and he de-friended me on facebook.

One of the first thing he asked me when I said we should break up was if there was someone else. I immediately said there was not. However, that was not entirely truthful. Let me say this right now: I DID NOT CHEAT ON HIM. Not at all. But I do have a crush on someone else who I enjoy spending time with far more than I did with Joel. If you've read my previous post you can probably guess who that is...

I'm not looking for sympathy or anything. I just wanted to write this down here because I cannot write it anywhere else.

So now I get to concentrate fully on theatre. No relationship issues. Haha, right. I can dream...

But really I am looking forward to just focusing on the upcoming light focus and the show I'm directing in our student run theatre. And my classes. Of course my classes.

Time will move on and he'll get over me, eventually. It sucks that it has to be like this, but my friends have all told me that it that's the way it is. Marshall had taken me outside to vent Monday when I was still deciding whether to go through with it or not and he had advised me to do it now, by phone. It would not have been fair for me or Joel to continue lying to both of us until I could see him in person again (Thanksgiving). He had been planning on coming down at the beginning of October, but I wouldn't have been able to break up then since that would have just been cruel for him to spend all that time driving and have had those wages lost just to have to drive away rejected. No, this was the best course of action.

The road goes ever on and on...

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