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A Rainy Morning

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on October 4, 2008 - 12:04pm

Good morning to all on a wet Saturday morning,

Well, finally saw some rain after what seemed like eternity of going without. California could certainly use more of it. I have to say it was quite refreshing to wake up to its sounds hitting the ground outside and the smell of the rain coming through my bedroom window. I just laid in bed late this morning, feeling almost in a trance by the soothing nature of the sweet weather.I always enjoy a good rain storm....when they happen, and here it doesn't that often. At least my car did get a little cleaner.lololol.

But a part of me is still sad this morning. The last few days I have not been feeling well. I am not sure if its this depression that keeps coming back or the way the world has gone around me these past few days. It just feels like nothing is going right for me lately and I just having a hard time dealing with it all. From the way the FOJG boards are going these days , to the people at my work that seem to put more pressure on me to get things done cause people there are too lazy to work at times, everything seems to be going in a direction I don't want to go. Even my own sweetie seems to busy for me these days. Our schedules and life are so different that getting any time with him has been a struggle. I have even started wondering if our lives are just too busy for one another. I hate thinking that, but I hate this feeling of missing him as much as I do. It sucks going through each day wondering if I am going to have any time with him that day.......just not fair.Men are so completely clueless at times. UGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!I don't think he truly realizes how much this kills me too.

But I am trying hard not to let it get to me, but on days like this, it just sort of creeps into my mind. I am not really sure where to go when I feel like this. Most of the time I just hide out from the world. Not sure that is a good thing to do though. I am kind of tired of feeling alone, but not wanting to face the world either. I am trying to keep my faith that things will work out, but I also admit that keeping my faith has been a struggle too. I have had so many let downs in my life, that my fears of being let down again seem to keep me from being free from worry.

I am sure this moment will pass, it always does. I am trying to remember that life could be worse than it is, but I admit, I tend to feel sorry for myself at times. I really hate when I do that too cause I feel guilty about it. * slaps self upside the head*. I suppose I gotta pull myself up by the thongs and just move forward..yeah, right...Like I wear any.....who needs a constant wedgie? But you get my point. I still wanna know the bone head who thought thongs would be great to wear????

So, tonight is another late nighter for me at work, although it won't be as late as last night. I don't really mind the late shifts as it gives me the day time to get things done, but by the time my shift starts, I am already tired. If it wasn't for the crazy gals that work there, I'd probably loose my mind all together. The only thing that really is great about starting so late is afterwards when I drive home, is always so peaceful. Less traffic on the road, a quiet night, and some Josh music in the car.....a lovely way to unwind.

Anyway, I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and spend it with the people that mean the most to you. Life is too short not to be with the ones you love....Nothing should ever be more important than your loved ones.

Take care all,

You are Loved!

My shout outs for today........

Barry, I miss you tremendously

Linda, FOJG needs your sanity always!!!!! Don't stay away too long girl!

Paul Newman, .........RIP

Mr CLEAN.............RIP..... (yes people, he was an actual person. The cartoon version of him was based on a real person. He died wednesday)

Wyatt.....Thanks for being a great mod and keeping the gals in line...lolol. Hope your birthday was a good one....Rock on dude!

Josh......Next time I want to hear you sing the Barney Theme song......lolol.Oh, and if your Dodgers are so darn lucky.... My Giants will get them next year..muhahahahahaha.

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