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Late night

vijaykumar's picture
on October 16, 2008 - 10:57pm

I can't believe I am up at 11:58pm. It is late for me. I am having a hard time sleeping though. So many things running through my head. But, I feel so sad. I feel like I have been riding on empty for so long and I am finally bottoming out. Where do I go from here? Maybe it's all the medications I have been on. I have had strep now twice in one month. I am sick of not being able to function normally and starting new meds not long after I come off it all. I feel like a freakin pharmacy. I have one at least. I have more narcotics than the local Walgreen's. I think it's about time to get rid of some. The kids always make fun of me because I dump it all in the toilet. I have to explain how dangerous it is to throw it away. And, it's easier to put it all in the toilet and give it a flush. It usually goes down the first time. Anyway, maybe once I come off the meds AGAIN, I will feel better. I hope so. I can't imagine having to pay for more, something stronger after the ridiculous amount I paid for what i am taking now. Holy cow. Doc gave me samples and I only had to pay for 2 pills. but, OMG! The 2 pills I had to pay for cost me $36. TWO PLIPPIN PILLS! I was like what the hell! I told the pharmacist that they better have gold flakes in it. He promised me that it will fix me up. All I have to say is, IT BETTER! I am not a medical guinea pig. I have 4 children I have to take care of. I can't afford to be sick all the time. So, back to what I was saying.

You would think I'd be flying high after the weekend I just had. And man oh man let me tell you, it was one hell of a weekend. I guess I better tell you know that I brought it up huh?

I went to a Michael Buble concert and got to meet him. OH MAN! He hugs like a teddy bear. It felt so good. AHH! And the kisses OMG! Back and forth, back and forth kisses. I thought I was going to die! There was this one part of the show that was SOOO orgasmic. You had to be there and if you were, you know what I am talking about.

I can't wait to see Josh perform. By the way, have you all seen the new photos? HELLO! My heart skipped about 10 beats. That man can take pictures and I would SOOO love to be his photographer.

OK, so I have decided that since I love photography, that is what I want to do. So, in January, I plan on going to school for graphic design. I would like to have my own photography business. That is something I can schedule around my children. I am so excited! I finally have a plan for my future. That is something I know I will succeed at because it is something I love doing. Then, I won't have to pester Obiwan. LOL! She is such a sweetheart!

OH my goodness! I almost forgot the most exciting news! This week, baby girl has started cruising the furniture! WOOHOO!!! She is so proud of herself! So she should be. That is a tough thing to do I'm sure. She is growing up WAYYYY to fast. She will be walking in no time now. GO CLAIRA!!!

OH and the bad news. The valve in the heat and air in my vehicle has gone out. My vehicle now only blows cold air. Being sick like I am, i didn't want to walk all of my little ones to the bus stop. It's 3 blocks away. So, I thought I would drive them. Well, it still sucked because I had no heat and we had to sit in a freezing cold car. The past couple of mornings, it has been I think 36 degrees. Baby girl, I know she was cold. I forgot to bring her car seat in so it would be warm for her. That reminds me, I better go get it. And, I guess I will try to get some rest. You all have a lovely night and a beautiful day!

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