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Good Bye

EggyPa14's picture
on April 2, 2009 - 8:23pm

Today we buried my mom. It has to be the hardest day of my life so far. I can't sleep cuz i have to many emotions running through me. I'm mad, sad, angry, and relieved that she's out of pain all in one. I hate it soo much. I don't know what to do with my self. Do I scream, laugh, I can't cry anymore it just doesn't happen. I wanna cry but I can't. The worst part of it all is that I forget she's gone, like tonight I was watching the last ER show and half way through it I picked up my phone to call my mom and see what she thought of it. and then i had to remember that she isn't here anymore and it killed me all over again. I must have done that like 20 times today. I've been at my aunts house all day and we were surrounded by my mom's entire family. but as things were happening I wanted to run and tell her things and every time it hurt a little more. I have no idea how anyone gets over this pain. A little piece of me is gone now and I lost my best friend to talk to. I just really don't know what to do. The pain is just so horrible. I always thought that what we went through before was bad but this just is sooo horrible. I have no other word for it. I absolutely hate it.

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