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BASHING MY HEAD IN WITH A ROCK?

ObiWanCannoli's picture
on March 10, 2009 - 7:08pm

Have you ever had one of those days? Where you wish someone would just bash your head in with a rock? That's kind of how I've been feeling lately. I have a lot on my mind and things haven't been going as well as I'd hoped and so rather than just sit and cry (which I do anyway ::rolling eyes::) I thought just getting my head bashed in was a quicker alternative. Let me start here and move along ... First off I had this huge journal entry typed out this morning, even emailed myself some pics from my phone to post because my computer wasn't cooperating and letting me access the pics. Grrrr! So anyway I had said that I'd gone to the podiatrist yesterday and he diagnosed me as being OLD ... actually it wasn't a neuroma in my foot at all but very bad arthritis, bone spurs and a buildup of fluid in the joints that is causing me such pain. They did x-rays and an ultrasound on my foot just to be sure and yep, that's pretty much what it is. I'M OLD and totally falling apart. So I get to take some Advil and have inserts made for my shoes. Yippee. So I got THAT going for me. Go me. Duncan ... baby boy has strep throat AGAIN ... I could tell Saturday when he said he had a sore throat that it might be but then Sunday morning he woke with a high fever, stomachache, and got a rash later in the day and I knew he would have strep. I took him to see his doctor Monday before my doctor appointment and yep, that's what he's got. Poor little guy. We decided to have lunch together at Burger King - one of the oldest in Illinois I would bet - even Duncan pointed that out. Anyway, after we had lunch we went down the street to Dr. Zygmunt's office and discovered that the river behind the office had nearly gotten so high that it took over the parking lot! I took a couple of pics of it and thought I'd post them here for you:

All over the rivers are flooding out of their banks and flowing onto streets and highways. It isn't cool but it looks cool. It's supposed to continue to be nasty tonight then subside and get cold again in the morning. Good grief! Where's the warm weather???

Does anyone else agree with me that this is one of the most awesome pics of Josh ever??

So here I am ...

At work, bored, feeling crappy ... counting down the time until I HAVE to go home. And there's the source of the head bashing comment. I'm going to have to move I'm sure ... there's no way our landlady is going to let us stay after a year of not paying out rent on time. She's very nice and it's not her fault but we've just had a rough year. I'm going to have to make a decision about my husband and what to do about him. He says he wants to work things out and that would be wonderful if I did too but I have to be honest with you ... I'm just ready to move on with my life. My wish? To be able to have a very small place with baby boy and the cats. That's all I ask. Just a small place with my boy and my furry boys. THEN I would be happy. If I could come home to baby boy and the furry boys, have a quiet dinner and fiddle with my computer then go to bed - THAT WOULD BE A DREAM COME TRUE. Then I could go to bed in my OWN bed and keep my covers on me without someone stealing them - OH BONUS!!!!!! The plain and simple things that would put a smile on my face -- will never happen. What to do with this husband? What about the oldest child, his wife, and kid? The middle child and her kid? I don't know! I really don't know! Bash my head in with the rock please ... put me out of my misery!!!!!!!

Here are the rest of the pics I wanted to show you:

Shadow on the arm of the couch and Darth on the back of it. I can't imagine why the couch isn't tipping over!

It's a silly baby boy sticking his head in the shot!

Emma and Allie have stolen the cheezits and have snuck underneath Kyler's computer to dump them on the floor and eat them. Bad girls!

Baby boy giving me the shovel! Noooooooooo baby boy I can't look at it!!!!!!

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