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feeling happy

on October 11, 2010 - 8:57pm

for some reason I am happy tonight. it is late but for what ever reason I am happy I was dancing in the kitchen to some silly commercial. my walking has been working. I tried on a pair of pants that never fit me (garage sale purchase that I didn't try on). They didn't fit me yet the button was so much closer than it used to be. I don't know if that is why I am happy or if I did something new tonight. I went to a meeting with my husband and I had to take minutes. it was the first time I have ever done this and I think it went pretty well. so I am happy about that as well. I really can't think of anyother reason. maybe that is enough of a reason.

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new news

on October 5, 2010 - 10:30am

Well I have been walking about a mile a day and today I just went to my first diabetes counseling session in prep to go to class in a few weeks. I knew it was coming but it didn't really hit me till today. I couldn't help it I cried as she was talking to me about this new thing in my life. I have't told any of my family because I feel like it iwll be just one more failure that they see.. I know it really isn't a failing on my part since apparently I have the gene for this diabetes thing. but thyroid cancer 11 years ago and loosing my job twice. onece after 10 years and again after only 9 months. yes both were layoffs but after trying over and over again get another job still no luck. I used to be so good at what I did. and all my bosses said I was a good employee.

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Wednesday

on September 29, 2010 - 8:58am

okay first journal on this new website. I am rather quiet on this site. I am quiet on most sites. FB I am a little more vocal on but then I am on that everyday. I am not on this site everyday. I am looking at the picture next to my jornal and it looks like Josh is wearing old jeans around his neck... hmmm what a fashion statement. yes I know it is probably a knited high price scarf that now everyon will want to wear. I had lots of good intentions this morning. I was going to go for a walk then rake or pick up branches. but so far I have had cheerios and finiished my FB apps.... I still plan to go for that walk but in a few min. Y&R is on. it isn't like I have to watch it so maybe I will skip it today ya that sounds good. okay going to get my shoes on and my pedometer and take that walk...

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working @ the shop

on January 7, 2010 - 11:52am

well I am working, at least sort of although the only pay I am getting is being warm. so I guess that is some sort of compensation considering the other option. My father in law owns a small engine shop on his farm they do mainly snowmobiles this time of year. all I can really do is answer phones because they are not always very organized so selling and finding things on my own if I get customers is not possible. both guys are gone. hubby is working today and father in law went to a funereal but should be back soon. the shop is quiet but nice and warm since the door isn't opening and closing all the time. Middle of the week I guess they don't get a lot of buisness. I tried filing for him a little but ran out of file folders. it looks a little better so I feel like I have accomplished something. The last few days have been rough. Monday I spend the day worried there was something wrong with my heart. My dad died of a heart condition and mom is always worried about her cholesterol. I am not is wonderful shap so I got a little nervous when I could hear my heart so clearly. it sounded loud and the house was quiet and once again I was alone.

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Driver

on November 13, 2009 - 7:46am

A neighbor of mine is picking up this morning so we can do her errands together. I have no errands but she wants me to drive because she is tired. I don't know am I being used? I haven't seen her in a while so I suppose she wants to talk too. We are friends but I feel as if sometimes she uses me, and sadly I let her. She calls in the morning and asks what I am doing that day. If my plans including going shopping she give me a list of what I can get for her. it usually includes beer which I don't drink. She drinks more than I do and I know her husband doesn't like but she doesn't go anywhere when she does drink so in that way she is safe. I have only seen her really drunk once or twice and we were far from home at her cabin up north and it was late and we no plans to go anywhere. I want to ask her why she feels she has to drink as much as she does alone but I don't want to grill her make her feel uncomfortable because is rather controlling and I don't want to make her life any more difficult. I feel writing about this here knowing it is available for so many people to see but I don't know how many people really will.

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