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Can't sleep so here I am

on August 16, 2007 - 12:19am

Am doing much better. Miss all the people I've met at the josh concerts. Rachel is gearing up for NC with Rebekah such a sweet girl.

Can't wait to so him on Ellen and then don't forget the next day he's on the sundance channel. So I'll get some Joshing.

Am working on my memory book for the concerts we went to. It's so much fun to put it together although, I'm not as good as the people who are really into scrapbooking. (too expensive for me)

Got the opportunity to go swimming today YEAH! it was great. Haven't had much of a chance to swim this summer - so was thrilled at this opportunity. WEll that's all for now folks. Be well and love each other.

blessings,
JoDee

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OK back with feeling good

on August 15, 2007 - 1:23am

Housemate came upstairs to go to sleep and when he put on his telly it woke me. Dispite the sleeping pill I took. So here I am at 4:14am. But doing so much better.. Social services has come through with my food stamps but still working on disability and looking for some kind of job.

Miss all the people I met this summer going to all the josh concerts, am very excited Rachel going to NC - Ticket prices are scalping at $4000.00 unbelievable, that is so WRONG.

Miscalulated my pain meds so I've been going through spouts of withdrawal, I can't get anymore from the Doctor until the 22nd so instead of 3 pills every 8 hours I'm trying to maintain with 2 every twelve hours, not an easy task. I guess when Rachel and I were away I didn't keep close tabs on when I took them so now I'm working through the consequences.- But I wait for myself to almost go into withdrawl feelings then take the meds - unfortunately the disorder I take them for of the bladder there is no cure so I have live on this stuff. As long as I can go to concerts and see my daughter it's worth putting up with.

I saw this laminating machine on qvc and almost bought it. It would help so much with my scrap book from my concerts.

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Feeling so Much Better

on August 12, 2007 - 8:05pm

Just wanted to drop a note that the day was soooo boring it snapped me back into reality. I'm much less depressed by tomorrow I may even be happy LOL.

My housemate Marc's mother's best friends kids (about 10 years younger than me) invited us over for a BBQ -- they have an inground pool and nice people were invited should have been a smash of a day. All the girls (it's a gay couple - made me miss my girlfriend even more today) did was spend time in the back room with their cats who couldn't be let out because the people would upset them. Well what do you do when your hostesses keep disappearing. Then there was housemates' family the ones that aren't fond of me so I had really no one to chat with most of the day. I got a lot of writing done in my journal (good thing I brought it with me) - David was there he's a 26 year old friend too and we chatted for a while so that helped a whole lot.

So I don't know if the writing in my journal or realizing that I was lucky in my life really, helped me feel better but I do.

Rachel and I had a great conversation while I was there (she rang on the mobile) - Maybe people didn't want to talk to me cause the two subjects I talk about are Rachel and Josh. I can still see those deep dark brown/black eyes staring at me when I met him. I hope Rachel and Rebekah get to meet him in NC. Well goodnight my friends and thanks for listening.

blessings,
JoDee

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Things Could be better

on August 12, 2007 - 10:18am

quick note life not that great today - Remember sometimes the people we depend on disappoint, but you have to go on anyway.

blessed be,k
Jo

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Neither a borrower nor a lender be

on August 10, 2007 - 9:43pm

I need to blow off steam tonight so I my fellow fojg's don't hold it against me. The evening started out really good actually. My girlfriend took me to a really nice french restaurant old style. Expensive and fun treated me to a real nice time. The chef was 84 years old and cooked everything from scratch. It was great. But then I got into emotional junk with someone else. Thus the need to blow off steam.

blessings, JoDee

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