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TGIT!

on April 9, 2009 - 5:30am

Okay that translates to Thank God It's Thursday! It's not Friday yet so I can't say TGIF ... one more day and I will! I can't tell if it's been a long, dragging week or a not-so-bad week ... but it is Thursday already so that's a good sign. I was on my own on Tuesday and that helped make the day zip on by. Baby boy wasn't home when I got home last night (grrrrrrrrr - yes I'm spoiled what can I say) so I took a nap! It wasn't easy to get back up after that but I did it. I had to watch Miss Emma. She's such a stinker. Talk about two years-old with an attitude. When she wants something there's not talking her out of it. YIKES. Anyway ... I heard from our old OM yesterday. She said she sent me the first email since she's moved! Yay! I got the Botti CD/DVD in the mail and it's ready to be sent to her ... now I just have to find her stinking address. I know I have it at work but I have to get there and find it. I have to admit, all this time I thought she was out for my blood and she was actually watching out for me - it was someone I call a friend who was/is out for my blood. Weird. Well I miss her - and she said she's trying to get used to all the Josh music in Canada ... huh? They play his music in that country? Hmph! They don't even play it in HIS OWN country! Good grief. So anyway ... I'm convinced that the Grobanites are a kind and generous lot - honestly at least 90% of them are good to the bone!! Duncan got a soccer jacket in the mail from a dear friend in Oz ... he put it on and hasn't taken it off except for the day he "lost" it but it had actually been hung up in his closet! Amazing he never thought to look there! So as I was saying - he got this wonderful jacket and won't take it off for love nor money -- here he is in it, yes he is in his jammies because he SLEEPS in it too!

Then he got a fantastic watch in the mail from another sweet Scottish Grobie - HE LOVES IT! Had me take pictures of him in it in several different poses! What a ham.

Then I got a wall hanging from a lovely lady in AZ ... she used a few of my creations and it's just gorgeous!

I was close to tears when I saw it! She is a wonderful, talented woman and I thank her from the bottom of my heart!

So now I have to deliver the bad news. I'm breaking apart from my husband. I can't take much more and in all honesty it's not fair to him. It's because of all my kids living with me - that our relationship couldn't survive. I am pulled in too many different directions and I have a short fuse anymore. Our lease is up in June and I think we're going our separate ways. Oh sure he gets the better end of the deal ... he gets peace and quiet and what do I get? Noise and chaos is the answer. I'm sad. I'm more sad than he is ... or so it seems. Could have been that elation dance he did when I told him I couldn't go on ... just kidding he doesn't dance. But seriously I'll bet this is a huge relief for him. Me? I'm still stuck ...

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GOOD GRIEF CHARLIE BROWN

on April 4, 2009 - 9:11pm

I came home from work last night around 6PM and went straight to bed and didn't get up until 8 this morning. Was I tired or what? I had the craziest dreams when I was sleeping there in the early evening ... first I was dreaming that I was in a motel room with a man and I won't divulge what I was doing ... this board IS PG after all ... but I'll bet you could guess. And then I was dreaming about all my kitties ... then I dreamt that I bought a Mini Cooper with a British flag painted on the roof. I parked it somewhere and couldn't remember where but it was in the heart of the city of Chicago and I was scared to death, I was with Duncan and couldn't find the car - my wallet had been stolen out of my purse but oddly enough I wasn't surprised or even that angry or frustrated about it, it was as though I'd expected it. Very strange. So I woke up energized and decided that baby boy and I were going out to breakfast. I had my Chai Tea latte and then we went. He was so cute, he put on a pair of khaki's, a nice shirt, and a tie! A TIE! Hehehehe! The shirt and the tie totally didn't match but I refused to tell him. I took pics of him in the restaurant ...

It's hard to tell on those little pics but trust me, he didn't match. So we're having a lovely breakfast - he's drinking the half & half and eating the jam in the little metal containers and he says to me; "you've never really met Josh have you mom?" I shook my head and told him no. He said he would introduce me! Hahahahaha! Well thank you Duncan. He said; "hey maybe we'll be such good friends with Josh he'll send me concert tickets in the mail!" One could only hope.

Here's my silly cat Snowy - he was laying on the desk with his head hanging off so I took a pic of him. He's my baby!!!

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TGIF

on April 3, 2009 - 4:51am

I'm tired. The beginning of the week was great ... I had energy and I seemed to get enough sleep but the last few days ... aaarrrggghhh! Not enough sleep! Emma tried to break my nose day before yesterday when she slammed her forehead into my face. I heard it crack and then I waited for the blood. It didn't bleed but it did swell a little and my eyes are a little black ... good grief! Anyway, I'm thankful it's Friday because I need to get some rest ... but now that I think of it I doubt I'll get any -- Emma's back!!!!! She's such a little stinker. I swear she thinks I'm the mom and her mother is her sister. She calls me mom but does call her mom "mommy" ... she thinks Duncan is her brother for sure. hehehehe Duncan is watching Family Guy and Death's mother is harassing him hahahaha! Okay so anyway ... Work is about the same only I guess Jessi got a promotion - she's going to be a medical assistant in the back rooming the patients. Wonder who they are going to get to work up front with me? That upsets me because Jessi and I are like sisters there ... I'm not really thrilled about this. I'm glad for her that she got a promotion but not happy for me being left alone. ::sniff sniff:: No one feels sorry for me better than me. So anyway ... I've not done any writing and I seem to be losing my touch. I think it's because Josh has gone off and seems to be ignoring the hands that feed him. I know you think he's busy but busy doing what? He's barely in the studio ... and he is surely not posting on the board like any sort of acknowledgment of the birthday auction ... Where is he and what's he doing? Anyway... I know you think it sounds like I'm angry with him and I probably am a little bit but I just miss him a whole lot and he hasn't been returning any of my phone calls ...

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I GET MY LIFE BACK!!!!

on March 29, 2009 - 9:25am

Baby boy will be coming home after being gone for a week - I can't wait! He went to Florida for a week with his father and it's like part of me has left. I talk to him on the phone but it's just not the same as looking into his loving, big, blue eyes or seeing him smile. He's like my life line - I don't know what I'd do without him. Anyway, the little stinker is coming home tonight and I'm thrilled to death. Emma had been gone a week too and while I missed that little stinker it was nice not to have to be in charge of a toddler. She blew in her this morning like the north wind and hasn't slowed down since. She's eaten everything in sight and followed the cats around trying desperately to pet them. They did miss her too ... sorta hahahaha! So anyway, yeah baby boy comes home tonight and I couldn't be happier!

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FRIENDSHIP

on March 27, 2009 - 4:13am

Some quotes:

Don Marquis:

There is nothing we like to see so much as the gleam of pleasure in a person's eye when he feels that we have sympathized with him, understood him. At these moments something fine and spiritual passes between two friends. These are the moments worth living.

Edgar Watson Howe:

When a friend is in trouble, don't annoy him by asking if there is anything you can do. Think up something appropriate and do it.

Elizabeth Foley:

The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart.

Francis David:

We need not think alike to love alike.

George Washington:

Friendship is a plant of slow growth and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation.

Henri Nouwen:

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

Marcel Proust:

Let us be grateful to people who make us happy; they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.

Aristotle:

What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies.

Since I've joined this group I have gained a few of these ... FRIENDS ... and I will say that I treasure you all! Without you my life would probably not be empty because God knows there are plenty of beings in it but it certainly would be less colorful. I am going to admit that I'm not the easiest of friends and for those of you who know me and yet still love me I will shed a tear of gratitude. I have quite a few hills and valleys in my life and it's been a long journey but I'm pleased to say I have a crowd around me who are willing to climb those hills (sometimes pushing me up them) and slide into the valleys ... always extending an outstretched hand or engulfing me in the warmth of their arms. Friends don't always see eye-to-eye ... we don't have to ... we're not married but for those who forgive and forget there is a place amongst kings for you. I've felt all alone in the recent past but I realize that I'm not. My friends are suffering with me and laughing with joy when I do. That's an amazing thing and no everyone can say they have experienced that ... I am among the luckiest. So I just wanted to take a moment and say thanks to those of you who are my friends and those of you who may not think you are ... but you are. Please don't always agree with me - all I ask is that you be yourself. Just be who you are. Those who truly love you will accept that. Including me ...

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