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Hopelessly flawed

on January 9, 2010 - 9:58am

My granny, God bless her and her 85+ years, is very sharp.
She cruises her five foot frame around her little town in a big white Ford Explorer. She is an emotional rock...I've only ever seen her really sob twice, and it was at times where anything less would have been unfathomable.

Whenever I think about what kind of person I want to be, I think of her soft-spoken mannerisms and selfless nature. Aside from the fact that she insisted on having a career in an era/community when women just did not work once they were married, she also exudes many character strengths that I admire.
She is endlessly kind, generous beyond belief, charitable, reasonable, witty, patient, tolerant, and just good. The woman has class oozing out her pores. To me, class means treating all the world with respect. Granny has always been the most respectful being I've ever known.
Ann Landers once wrote, "Class is an aura of confidence that is being sure without being cocky. Class has nothing to do with money. Class never runs scared. It is self-discipline and self-knowledge. It's the sure footedness that comes with having proved you can meet life.”

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Consider me daunted.

on January 8, 2010 - 12:49pm

I had this great big jenga-like tower of projects all very delicately balanced. Teetering, but still standing.
Was just beginning to fathom how to stabilize said tower.

Stray, wayward, unsuspected missile attack from above has scattered said tower in a heaping pile of rubble at my feet.

One solution:
going out for martinis
If I'm not back by Monday, somebody sweep up this mess, k?

-A

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From the desk of a brilliant writer....

on January 3, 2010 - 7:13am

Ms. Lisa Kogan is a brilliant writer and in the bits that she pens, I often find gems of wisdom to which I can totally relate.
In this bit, she is speaking of a certain generation of women. It hit home. I love it and the truth it depicts:
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"We juggle jobs, mortgages, student loans, and cancer treatments with low-fat diets, low-impact aerobics, low-grade depressions, a strong sense of irony, a dark sense of humor and a full-bodied cabernet.

We are tired. We are very tired - we've thought seriously about penciling in a nervous breakdown for ourselves, but we've been through everything the world has to throw at us so many times that it's damn near impossible to get nervous about much of anything.

Despite (or perhaps because of) all the coulda woulda shoulda moments that have come and gone, we've learned how to have a good laugh, an impromptu party, and an impure thought (or two) on a semi regular basis. We consider our options, our alternatives, our exit strategies. We take notes, we plan ahead, but we always leave room for serendipity. We are an entire generation of women who are making up our lives as we go along."

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It's so melancholy....

on January 1, 2010 - 3:52pm

...I swear I can hear taps playing in the distance.

I took down the Christmas decor today....it's my New Year's Day tradition. The corner where the tree stood now seems so dark and dreary. The table is plain. The wall that held stockings is bare. I don't like to take it down, but it wouldn't be special if it was up all the time.

This year, I especially didn't want to de-Christmas. I never really felt it this year....that magical feeling of the holiday. But I did enjoy it, make no mistake.

Onward we go....embarking into 2010 with full force. Okay, maybe only with half-hearted force. Perhaps it's not force at all. Maybe it's more resignation. Whatever it is, I'm there.

So much happened in the last decade.....gains and losses abound accompanied by infinite change.
Today was another dose of weirdness. My beautiful Great Aunt Audrey (think old Hollywood glamor. That woman was gorgeous) died today. She was quite elderly and quite ill, so this is not a surprise. But it's still sad when a light goes out.

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Merry merry merry merry merry

on December 25, 2009 - 9:28am

My son is with his father today and I've decided to go make good use of my movie theater gift card....and catch Sherlock Holmes (I <3 Robert Downey Jr....but will this flick be as good as the immortal "Kiss Kiss Bang Bang"? the bar is HIGH!)

Big problem: all my favorite apparel is in the laundry.
What ?? You're suggesting I DO laundry???
It's Christmas day, you blasphemers. ;)

Oh, I'll make do, I'm sure!

Hope everyone is enjoying the day...blessings to you all!

-A

P.S. that image is an illustration of my happy, excited dance upon seeing the vlog by Mr. Groban last evening. Yay!

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