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Strength

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on October 12, 2010 - 10:31pm

Everyday I say "God give me strength" for one reason or another. We all have days where we do not know where that last bit of strength will come from to just get through a tough day at work or difficult circumstances. Today I am thankful for all of the strength that has been bestowed upon me because I don't have enough energy to start lifting massive amounts of weights to get some strength.

God knew what he was doing when he put some pounds on my son and made me the shortest person in the house. It was so I would not hang anyone out the window and chain them to the window frame just to hear them beg for help.

The Boy as he is referred to, is such a huge challenge. Between his age, environment, unrealistic ideas, impulsive behavior and thinking that there is no difference between the privileges adults and children have, he is making me crazier than I ever have been in my life. I kid you not - he is like a drunk, only sober. He reminds me somewhat of The Man in his drinking days.

Seeing that I don't have a diagnosis on paper with a manual about how to raise him according to his neurological deficiencies, I just don't know what to do with him. So, I saw his therapist, who is now going to be at his school one day a week for kids who need some guidance. The bottom line: His defiant, hateful behavior has pretty much nothing to do with his Inattentive ADHD, SPD, anxiety, occasional depression or lack of motivation. He is simply a very defiant 11 year old, almost 12 year old, boy. His therapist gave me some ideas. I just did not want to do something wrong and mess him up.

I shared with her all of his nasty behavior. I shared his good behavior. I shared his ability to con the socks off of me.

It is going to be tough for a while but hopefully I can get through it. I have to. The word "NO" will be used a lot. He does not like that.

The Boy was in an exceptionally great mood after school. I discussed his rewards for doing homework and he was okay with that, but it is only day #1. For his sake, I hope all goes well. I am not a quitter, but a fighter and go getter. He did some homework tonight so there is a milestone.

Listened to Josh's newest song on ITunes. Awesome. I can tell already I am going to love this new album, just like Josh said we would.

I am off to bed to get enough rest to handle the morning. I need to let his teachers know about the big move he made by getting some of his homework done, even if it was a couple of problems. Yippee!

Nighty nite and sleep tight.

Kate

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